water in a stick

water in a stick
survival

Thursday, June 24, 2010

hurry up and wait then HOPE

You go to the doctor and sit and wait in the waiting room for an hour, then another twenty minutes in the exam room, then finally he comes in and sits and reads your chart for five minutes before he addresses your issues.  If you are ten minutes late for your appointment they reschedule and charge you anyway.  Hmmmmm.
Why is my time worth so little?
Why is the doctors time worth so much?
We have been doctoring, some success, some failure.  It is so much fun.  Ha.
BUT........tomorrow is hopefully our last appointment and the doc will say we are great, just take the magic pill and whamo we will be perfect.  Then we can leave and head north for our renewal of vows on July 3rd.
I am excited, but wary of tomorrow.  What if the doc says we need to stay?
It's limbo again.
I just want to feel good.  I want my hubby to feel good.  Feeling rotten is getting very, very old.
Hope.  It is what I have left.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

limbo

It's been a few days since I wrote.  They weren't pleasant.  Doctors, tests, more doctors, and not much as far as relief or results.  So we have schedule more tests.  Both me and my sweet husband are having tests and dotcors appointments.  What a drag.  I just want to feel good.  And I want him to feel good too.
Maybe soon.
I am happy.  I do love my life, most of the time.  That will have to be enough.  For now.